I find myself frayed and raw once again. I kind of look like the crazy cat woman to be honest. You would turn and walk away if we met in a dark alley. I’m edgy, anxious, argumentative. I’m fighting some unseen enemy so my talons out, ready but I’m not sure what for. It’s a good thing for all us that God lead me to Isaiah 35 today for my quiet time.

…God’s resplendent glory, fully on display. God awesome. God majestic. Energize the limp hands, strengthen the rubbery knees. Tell fearful souls, “Courage! Take heart! God is here, right here, on his way to put things right and redress all the wrongs. He’s on his way! He’ll save you! Blinds eyes will be open, deaf ears unstopped, Lame men and women will leap like deer, the voiceless will burst into song.” 

If I, a woman who has everything; a beautiful family, a wonderful marriage, a loving church, a fulfilling ministry, a lovely home, money in the bank, food galore, a reliable car, a healthy body, a somewhat sane mind, safety, security, and too many shoes to count; If I need these words to draw an even breath today can you imagine what these words mean to a scared teen who is finding out even right now that she is pregnant? What can these words mean to a young woman who scared, alone, and whose mistakes are catching up with her left and right. What can it mean to her that her Heavenly Father is charging through all the darkness of fear to rescue her?

I am nearly jumping out of my skin to get started serving at The Sparrow’s Nest. I can hardly hold myself together thinking of what second and third and fourth chances will look like played out in real life. I’m ready for the battle of resistance. I’m prepped for the arguments against these girls’ worth.

I cannot wait to hear what song she will sing.